misconceptions.
i think i have misinterpreted love. because every time some one “loves” me…or is “in love with me” or says “i love you” it never turns out well. i start to feel unloved, unworthy, and like i’m putting every thing i have into a relationship that never gets reciprocated.
i’m trying to be general here, i’m not calling anyone out. but is this just a girl problem? do dudes ever feel that way?
why don’t boys open car doors for their lady? why don’t boys tell their lady that she’s beautiful? what do boys expect from girls on dates/in a relationship?
i’m just confused and i want clarity.
so. i read lots of blogs.
i read a lot of blogs that other girls write. about their daily lives and sexual encounters and really cool dinner dates with their bestgirlfriends. and my life is in no way as interesting as those cool girls, but i guess i’m KIND OF interesting. i like to hang out, and party sometimes. and even though i’m in a relationship, maybe sometimes things happen to me that i wish i could divulge to ANY ear that’s listening.
anyways. i’m kind of a boring person. i’ve read lots of super boring books. i try to read cosmo, but it just depresses me because it says the same thing every month, just with a little different wording… i like fashion and hair and makeup and shoes. i really, really, love shoes. it’s unhealthy. really. when i was in highschool i thought i would go into the music industry and write reviews for bands…somehow be this tour-leader, sound-runner, lights-maker, press release-writer, girl…but i ended up going into english..and then dropping out of real college to go to cosmetology school. so different from the dream, right?
anyways. i still really like music. and i’m learning to love myself. so join me?
